Thursday, March 24, 2011

I have Writer's block

eddie zee

I have writers block. Consistent thoughts merged with ideas and formulas within inches of a solution. I have writers block. A cancer with no antidote, searching for false hope, but at least my breath is inhaling and exhaling. The ingredients to a well prepared dish without patient’s, leads to chaos. It all leads to jotting down useless sentences about corporate entities, basketball players, rappers, and this A.D.H.D. My thoughts are all over the universe at the moment. I have writers block. This is so fucking annoying. I can imagine if Leo Tolstoy entered his nine hundredth page in War and Peace and just froze. What a waste of time. This effort is minor to the detailed explanation of a topic I could have written about. But where is it? I have writers block and I have to let everyone know about it. This tedious mind of mine breaks and loosens up its blood flow just to encounter this worthless typing. I’m centimeters away from you, my topic, my discussion, my conclusion and thesis. No luck. No signs of recovering this time. These words seem to just slip away into unresponsive ears as the sun starts to burn. It’s quite late but dreaming is something of a treat right about now. And I will not allow my mind to feel its comfort until something spills out. Relaxing down stream into an ice cream filled pond with a spoon in my hand can only be a hallucination I’m having. So let me escape this dreadful thought and enter into a topic. Fuck! I have writers block. What am I talking about, ice cream filled ponds? I’m better, more constructive, and expensively intricate with syllables in intervals when I enter into an empty word document. Let alone the fact that I enjoy the satisfaction of my writing without regretting the tones in my voice. I’m entering into a writer’s mind, a labyrinth I cannot overcome, that I cannot fully fixate. With a little bit bold typing, spontaneous sentences, word play, verbs and adverbs, structure, grammar, and a mixture of scattered thoughts, I have to say this is quite interesting. However, isn’t that what writer’s do? We type away into novels and fiction, nonfiction and short stories, poems and biographies, to comics and law, and literature, into what makes sense to what doesn’t make sense. We enter into the minds of our readers to capture an emotion, a feeling, and some sort of a reaction. So to the readers, the critics, and myself, I suppose I have but one more tittle to add. “I have writers block”.

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